Diagnose with Sporotrichosis

Alright, so it started when we decided to do castration for nemo (due to certain circumstances). Castration in Malay is pemandulan, but since nemo is a female, she will have to undergo minor surgery (which is a normal procedure is u asked any vet). So, it started when Nemo went through this minor surgery, they tend to cut through nemo's lower abdomen (as you can google castration process on how they do it and all - bcs i did before sending nemo). So after the surgery, it normally took 5 days to a week time for normal cats to heal but in Nemo's case, the wound tends to open up. Of course the doctor will said Nemo was too rough on herself and maybe she bite her own stitches due to feeling itchy at the surgery place. So the doctor stitched her up again and told me to take a very careful care of her (of course i will kot.. c'mon nemo is my baby!) and then....

it happen again.. :( do you know how deteriorate I felt at that time??!! and yet the doc said something like it is still the same damn reason.. that nemo is being too active and myb due to that, the stitches got opened up again. and again, they stitch her up again but this time they did not sedate her at all because they do not want to keep sedating her too much (sedating can have a slight effect if it is done too many time i suppose?) and okay, this keeps on happening again n again and finally i decided to change the vet. from vet A to vet B. this place B is nearer to my house so okay, lets give it a try. so by the time i went to vet B, tat was nemo's 4th surgery (as in 4th time being stitched again and again i think? 3rd or 4th i can't really remember). So, i went to vet B hoping for help because at that time, i was vulnerable like I just don't know how to take care of my own cat. Do you know how devastating it felt??

So okay. Vet B tried to help by stitching her back up again and kept her for few days to keep her on observation. well, i understand they tried to help but on the 4th day, nemo is getting more and more depressed and she doesn't even want to eat or even poo because nemo is a home cat who I do not keep in cage and she literally settles her business in toilet (like human do because I trained her so well that she even waits for the line to go to the toilet :D i know, i just love this cat so much. she is a well trained cat i can say). so it is a very hard time for her to deal with sudden changes and it is not a small change for her, and I just couldn't bare to see my baby suffers by staying in the clinic so i decided to take her home. but AGAIN, her stitches keeps on re-opening back again (at that time it was already nemo's 6th or 7th stitches) and idk i think the doc was so frustrated he said that I DON'T KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF NEMO and asked me stuff as if i purposely did that to nemo. I got so angry I told my mom that the doc has no right to say that i do not know how to take care of my cat. i did every single thing he told me to do. to not let her out of the cage for a whole week, to not let her even walk around the house i did all that. the only thing that i do was changing her collar she had been wearing for idk months since the first surgery to a smaller collar just because my nemo's arm (both arm) was having blisters due to the over-sized collar (vet B changed her collar to a bigger one because to them, they said the collar was small that it allows nemo to bite her stitches but it wasn't! the collar was the right size for her but because they are the doctor so i let them do their work and trusted them) so thing is, i changed it back into the usual size after a week i took her home and just because of that, the doctor said i did not love my cat and i was the caused this thing happened. you know what is on my mind at that time? I was the worse owner a cat can ever asked for. seriously. I was so down i cried a lot.

So? my mom managed to slow talk with me, and we decided to give it a try and go to the 3rd vet... vet C. we went there once years ago (when my previous cat was still around) so we decided to try out again. with such a heavy heart, i tried to explain to the doctor incharged and they agreed to try help nemo but first they need to do some swapping to detect what is it that actually caused nemo's stitches to unable to cure like a normal wound will. so i admitted my cat there on friday morning and in the afeternoon, i received a call from vet C, and they told me that the ONLY REASON why this keeps on happening is because nemo was infected with the disease called SPOROTRICHOSIS. The doctor explains it carefully to me about this disease how it is actually a very dangerous disease, and even asked me if i has any opened wound with me as she's scared that i might be infected too if i had any, but Alhamdulillah, i did not. So with such sad news (and with lots and lots of tears and cries - a big portion of me was so scared of loosing nemo but a small portion inside me was so damn relieved that I WAS NOT THE CAUSE of nemo's wound to keep on popping up again and again but that was not my main concern at that time).. at that time, all i can think of is how will nemo endure this pain alone as she will have to be isolated not only from other animals, but also from humans.. from me. 

(i will continue this story later at night or when i have my free time, but for now, lets stop here. please know that i am not blaming any vets or doctors who technically are involved in this case but just a simple note to any doctors out there, you guys have no right to judge an owner by simply saying we do not know how to take care of our pets because if i do not care, i wont be going to hardship to change vets and spending idk hundreds myb for my cat just to get her help. and that was the most painful event i have to go through my entire life knowing as if i do not know how to take care of my baby, as though i am the one causing all the pain she has to suffer for the past few months. that is just the worse feeling ever i can say. and i can never forget that. i even asked my mom to call the doctors in vet B and update them with nemo's condition and yes, the news made them speechless and yes, to me, they failed as a doctor; they fail to help my cat and instead blaming me for it. that is the most horrible thing a doctor can do towards a patient. I'm sorry but writing this is not to blame anyone, but for other people out there to be very careful in choosing your vet.)